D for Dear Once Upon A Time Woman…


DHere’s a piece that has been germinating since January this year. A letter, a poem, a truth. This is D for April 2015 A to Z Challenge.

~O~O~O~O~O~O~

Dear Once Upon A Time Woman,

We learnt a long time ago
that our most complicated relationship
would not be with men
but with each other
See, you were my person once
and I, yours
We’ve been so many things to each other

Cupboards
full of each other’s painful memories
wrapped up in soft cotton hankies
and favorite teeshirts with tear stains
Tucked away in the other person cupboard
Locked with keys that
no family, lover or friend has ever held

We’re blank sheets of paper
in each other’s hands
holding words that we never get to say
to the people who wound us
to those whose lives build our walls and our ceilings
These blueprints of ourselves,
painted in ugly thoughts and unsavoury words
on those untidy sheets of paper
That you and I are to each other

We told other people our secrets
But we gave each other
bits and parts of ourselves
that didn’t fit
into your handbag
my bookshelf
the corners of the desk that we shared

And now
my pockets are bulging
with uncategorisable ends of you
Your forgotten guilt is
poisoning my food
It’s making me ill

While your mind
it’s a whipping wind
of stray ideas
and words that I adopted
You’re tired of babysitting them,
you have your own children to care for

Dear person
My once upon a time person
it must be a once upon a time thing
Or we’ll be trapped in an eternal echo chamber
endless reflections in parallel mirrors
Memory and future, fantasy and life
muddying each other

Let us not be labels anymore?
Not Best Friends
Or Karmic connections
Or Soulmates
Or Scorpio-and-Cancer

Let us just be
you and me
And sometimes
discovering what that is
needs us to go down different paths

You take left
I’ll check right
And we’ll find each other
When we figure out how to be
when there isn’t a place
to hide the things we don’t like about ourselves

Farewell, my other self
Till we meet again.

~O~O~O~O~O~O~

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7 thoughts on “D for Dear Once Upon A Time Woman…

  1. Reema Prasanna April 5, 2015 at 09:03 Reply

    Perhaps a lesson to human beings who obsess about making things last when nothing does.

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    • IdeaSmith April 9, 2015 at 14:32 Reply

      @Reema Prasanna: Clinging is second nature to most of us.

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  2. lancequadras April 5, 2015 at 12:16 Reply

    Beautiful words which made me think a lot… Lovely bio btw… Happy weekend.

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    • IdeaSmith April 9, 2015 at 14:33 Reply

      @lancequadras: Thank you! Do come back, there’s a whole month of such posts coming up.

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  3. Ranveer vishal April 6, 2015 at 01:06 Reply

    Hey Ideasmithy, didn’t know you participating in the challenge. Love the powerful words. It’s not easy to be ourselves and not lose our identity but the way we lose it, we cease to exist.
    Cheerz

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    • IdeaSmith April 9, 2015 at 14:33 Reply

      @Ranveer vishal: I have participated in this challenge before too. Thank you for visiting and I’m glad you liked the piece! Do come back and share your thoughts on the others.

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